In my experience, you can’t win with someone who has borderline personality disorder (BPD). You might start off feeling great around them, but sooner or later, they will accuse you of “offending, betraying, abandoning, or not really caring” about them. And one day, because you will tire of trying to prove yourself, you will give up. You will feel controlled, and they will feel justified for assuming the worst about you.
Understanding borderline personality disorder (BPD)
- People with BPD aren’t crazy. They can be high-strung, thin-skinned, and self-absorbed.
- Their reactions—while extreme to you—feel justified to them.
- Because they feel everything—and often misinterpret what they’re experiencing—they can be difficult to reason with.
- Things that feel innocuous or reasonable to you really can feel unbearably rude, hurtful, or painful to them.
- Because their bodies misinterpret or exaggerate the meaning of other people’s words or actions, they are often disappointed when a relationship they thought was mutual turns out to be one-sided.
- Their relationships tend to be voloatile, intense, and short-lived.
- Because they feel slighted often, the people around them tend to tiptoe, give more than they receive to prove they care, and accept erratic, irrational, and seemingly crazy behavior.
- Giving in to irrational demands for loyalty, devotion, or special treatment will eventually lead to resentment of the person you once loved.
Loving someone with BPD
It’s possible to love someone who suffers from borderline personality disorder. As long as you meet their needs, they can be delightful. But as soon as you disappoint them, watch out. You’ll find yourself scratching your head while walking on eggshells.
My advice is to tell your friend that you love her. Andthat you will honor her request for no contact. And enjoy your freedom.
Chances are that sooner or later, your friend will call you out of the blue. She won’t mention the month that’s passed since you last spoke. She won’t apologize for cutting you off, hanging up on you, or accusing you of not caring about her.
She’ll probably act like nothing happened. Then she’ll ask you if you still want to go to concert you planned to attend together.
Above all, do not bend over backwards to prove your love or give in to emotional demands for greater loyalty or special treatment. This only encourages more of the same. Instead, express love-with-limits. It’s really your only hopeof being in a successful long term relationship with someone with BPD.
Years ago, I had a client who always arrived late and wouldn’t leave at the end of her session. When I mentioned this pattern, she blew up. She accused me of “faking it all along.” She told me I had misled her into thinking she was special.
“If I didn’t know it before,” she said, “I know it now. All I am to you is a paycheck!”
In her mind this made perfect sense. If she arrived late and I gave her extra time, this would prove she was special. The truth was that if I gave her extra time, it would mean that my next client would be kept waiting. Not only would this be disrespectful of their time. It would mean that everyone would have to start late, and I would be running over for the rest of the day.
Over time, if you give in to irrational expectations they will continue. Sooner or later, you will start to pull away. And your friend will be right. You’ll go from being the “only one who cares,” to being “just like everybody else.”
You’ll be the latest in the string of people who have “stopped caring” and really are trying to avoid her.